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| Two months have passed,
everything goes back to square one.
I didn't make no changes, maybe even worser.
Selfishness is what I can't get rid of, it's too deep too deep.
If I was living in this world on my own, how could that be? Would I enjoy it? For such a selfish guy like me, the answer could be yes. I seldom live in the world out of myself, so I am kinda afraid when facing different kinds of people, I just simply cannot cope with them. The reason of having just a incompetent character is due mainly to the fact that I seldom open myself to the world.
In my world, I only have my family members, they are nice to me, always gives me the best. My two sisters are also my friends, whenever I have anything I can't manage, I will talk to them. Though their comments aren't always the best, I enjoy doing so because at least I feel relieved afterwards. Living in such a peacful and stable environment, I feel statisfied.
But problems arise. In this world, I am the one who always receives love from people, I seldom gives. I have 2 big questions of ''Have I ever truly loved a person in this world'' and ''How to love a person'' when it comes to the point I have to love people.
Honestly I don't have too many friends, maybe I am too self-protected, selfish, unsociable and incapable of giving my loves to them, these just make my friends all escape from me. Without friends, the other main channel of showing love and learning how to love is deprived by me, I am the guilty person.
Having such a big deficiency and incompetence, I feel sad. I just feel I am not qualified. Wordless. | | |
| 對於愛..我想我真的不善於表達...
或者我真係大自私..
從來都冇為別人著想過...
凡事以自己利益行先....
根本連愛既基本要求都未達到..
因為我曾經聽過愛係無私架...
無私係唔係需要學習, 定係一的對自己所愛既人既本能反應呢?
我諗, 佢地大家都有一定既原素去令到無私出現..
因為當你愛一個人既時候, 你就會自自然想為佢做一的野...想保護佢..
尼的大概係對自己所愛既人既本能反應,
但係係尼個物質豐富既世界上..人好自然就會俾其他事情所引誘..
做左一的自顧自己利益而忽略自己所愛既人應做既事..
例如: 有一日你可能太累, 而對你所愛既人態度差左...俾睡魔吸引左去睡覺..
其實甘樣已經達唔到無私既水平...因為愛一個人應該時常關心佢..
唔應該忽略佢, 同對佢態度差...
所以係令一個角度泥睇...無私係需要學習架...
甘其實係學習咩呢?
係個人因素方面,我覺得應該學習點樣管理自己既時間...
就以上個例子泥睇..
如果時間管理掌握得好的...係自己仲有體力既時候打一個電話去關心下對方..
其實甘樣已經好足夠架啦...
仲有愛一個人係需要付出時間,好好甘管理好時間就會有多一的時間留番俾對方..
雙方因素方面, 溝通係相當重要....有咩唔好怕講...
甘樣就做到無私?
好似膚淺左的....不過我有限既腦袋只有尼的野...
仲有一樣野值得考慮既就係..即使俾係做到無私...對方會懂得欣賞嗎?
會接受尼種被愛既方式嗎?
其實我真係好想為自己所愛既人做一的野..
希望佢會知道我有幾愛佢..
但係我真係知點表達...
我唔知點樣做別人先會感受到我既愛...我係唔係太自私?
如果係, 我想努力的去學習..
P.S. 尼篇野唔係想教的咩, 其實係想俾你知道我心入面諗咩..
或者佢真係好廢...不過我都打左啦..
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| 我知道自己有千百萬個不是..
成日都唔知自己做咩...
成日都話溫書...到頭來咩野都無做...
我其實好想做好多野...
我好驚自己唔記得做邊樣...
所以用紙抄低要做的咩...
但到頭來一樣正經野都冇做...去左摺紙...
我好想快的溫完書..
同你傾電話...
話你知我好掛著你...
但到頭來一樣正經野都冇做...去左摺紙...
我甘樣只會令你對我一次又一次甘失望..
我想做好的..但又甘hea...
的時間管理得一的都唔好...
一樣正經野都冇做...去左摺紙...
我唔想一事無成..
我想努力的..
做好現在..做好未來..做個好丈夫..
我唔想我完美既妻子同一個只懂摺紙ge丈夫一起...
陳家豪...請你努力點吧!!!!
P.S. 我要講得出做得到..
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| You've got the best of both worlds
You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,
And lift him back up again
You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading
Your style is quite selective,
Though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
That this is just what happiness is
And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like we're picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write
Kind of turn themselves into knives
And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction
But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear
'Cause here we are, here we are
Although you were biased I love your advice
Your comebacks they're quick
And probably have to do with your insecurities
There's no shame in being crazy
Depending on how you take these
Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging
And what a beautiful mess this is
It's like picking up trash in dresses
Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say
Kind of turn themselves into blades
And kind and courteous is a life I've heard
But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt oh dear
Cause here we are, Here we are
Here we are.......
We're still here
What a beautiful mess this is
It's like taking a guess when the only answer is yes
And through timeless words, and priceless pictures
We'll fly like birds not of this earth
And times they turn, and hearts disfigure
But that's no concern when we're wounded together
And we tore our dresses, and stained our shirts
But it's nice today, oh the WAIT was so worth it.
by Jason Marz
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Hope you won't mind my nerve and
submerge in my contracdictions...
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| Top of the world by The Carpenters
Such a feelin's comin' over me
There is wonder in most everything I see
Not a cloud in the sky
Got the sun in my eyes
And I won't be surprised if it's a dream
Everything I want the world to be
Is now coming true especially for me
And the reason is clear
It's because you are here
You're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world 
Something in the wind has learned my name
And it's tellin' me that things are not the same
In the leaves on the trees and the touch of the breeze
There's a pleasin' sense of happiness for me
There is only one wish on my mind
When this day is through I hope that I will find
That tomorrow will be just the same for you and me
All I need will be mine if you are here
I'm on the top of the world lookin' down on creation
And the only explanation I can find
Is the love that I've found ever since you've been around
Your love's put me at the top of the world 
This is not a surprise no more, haha...coz i am stupid.
This song is called ''Top of the world'', what a coincidence?
Beautiful lyrics and all are for you..
You can lead me out of frustration because
you have leaded me to the top of the world.
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